PTSD veteran

Panicked – Not in My Vocabulary

It took awhile for me to adjust to civilian life after the Army. The whole world seamed to be out of place. There wasn’t an order to everything like the military and people ran around like little kids doing and saying whatever came to mind.

The one thing that really stood out the most is the way people would become panicked whenever something serious happened. Being panicked isn’t in my vocabulary. After 14 months of being mortared, shot at and receiving blown-up patients  in the middle of the night drove fear right out of me.

I’ve learned that nothing good comes out of being panicked. You don’t think straight and nothing will get accomplished as you’re running around like a chicken with its head cut off.

I’m not saying that I don’t get a little scared in sticky situations, I’m saying that I don’t let it control me. I have faith that God will tell me the right thing to do and that basically drives the fear right out of me and allows my brain to function properly so I can think straight. My wife and daughter sometimes think that I care about them because I don’t get panicked when they hurt themselves.  I care about them, I just know that they will be ok.

I’m pretty sure every medic who has a CMB (Combat Medic Badge) can think calmly under bad situations because of practice. Next time you find yourself in a panick just remember to take a deep breath, say a quick prayer and try to deal with it the best you can.

Panicked

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Author of Combat Medic : A soldier's story of the Iraq war and PTSD.Served as a combat medic on the front lines in operation Iraqi freedom/ enduring freedom. Medically retired from the Army in 2006 with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, retired from the VA hospital since 2013. After struggling with PTSD and suicide for twelve years I have made it my priority to share my story with as meany people as I can to help America understand what it's like being a combat veteran back home from war. It is my hope that other veterans can relate to my life and take use the same tools as me to live a better life with PTSD.

13 comments on “Panicked – Not in My Vocabulary

  1. Thank you for your service! When you put it this way, a lot of us civilians should be grateful for some of the things we ‘panic’ over.

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  2. That makes a lot of sense. I’m probably one of those civilians that panic over silly things. Logically, I know it makes more sense to stay calm and address the situation at hand, but sometimes that’s a lot easier said than done. But I totally agree with you: the more you practice staying calm, the easier it will be further down the road. Thank you for your service!!

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  3. wildpreciousorg

    Thank you for your service, Samuel, and for sharing your experience of living with PTSD with the world. May is Mental Health Month, and I’m reminded that– more than ever– we need to see real-life examples of folks experiencing mental health issues and living their lives. Thanks again!

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  4. authensible1357

    Yes, we definitely need to put things in perspective sometimes. I’m glad I came across your blog today as I was just panicking about a situation. Thanks so much!

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  5. I’m so glad you have the mindset about panic. I resonate with you whole heartedly. This makes you good at service because you’re not creating the unwanted emotions in your members. This was an awesome read. Thank you for this!

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  6. IT’s great to hear the thoughts and perspective from someone who has served in the army. The world needs to hear more from you.

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  7. Thanks for sharing this helpful and genuine post! Yup – remaining calm in all situations can be challenging but it’s definitely the way to go for eliminating panic and moving forward with problem solving. I really enjoy your blog!

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