Not So Meaningful Life
Four years ago I was trapped inside of my head, alone and filled with darkness. I never wanted to leave my apartment because of war flashbacks and spouts of anger I had while being in public.
No one could see, hear, or feel what I was going through. Everything I did to feel normal felt meaningless.
Every relationship I held slowly deteriorated away. It’s not like my family and friends didn’t try to help me, I just didn’t want their help. I thought they wouldn’t understand, which is true, but it didn’t mean they didn’t love or care about what was happening to me.
I pushed everyone away.
The Fight for a Meaningful Life
One day the longing to get out of the pits I was trapped in started to overwhelm me. While on the brink of suicide I had a conversation with God. He gave me strength while opening my eyes to see the power He gave me to overcome demons. I learned the importance of keeping a close relationship with Him so I could live.
From that moment on I have put all my faith into Him, a decision that I’ll never regret.
I started going to church and read the bible daily, applying every scripture I read to my life. My relationships with friends and family started growing. Life became so much more enjoyable
I would love to say the flashbacks and anger stopped, but it didn’t. I just stopped letting it control every aspect of my life so I could live a more meaningful one.
In time you will learn how to live a more meaningful life and stop letting the past run your future. Give in to love, family, and salvation to find your path to a healthier you.
Your writing can do a lot to help others that suffer as you do. Teach them how to cope.
Thank you .
I am glad you found something that made you want to turn your life around and not let the PTSD control you. My father in law struggled with PTSD after he came out of the police force, but I can say he has been doing a lot better lately.
I’m glad he’s doing good. Thank you!
Your writing inspires me! I am glad that you found peace and hope in Christ and have a growing relationship with Him. Keep writing and keep the faith! 🙂
It is wonderful that you found your source of strength in God. I am glad to see that you did not allow PTSD to control your life. Thanks for sharing your true story.
I’m so happy you turned things around and took control over your PTSD x